Exactly four months ago today was my last post on this blog. If you’re wondering where I’ve been, well, here I am. It was close to the end of last term break that I decided to re-install a MOBA game that I really liked, VainGlory. And, sadly, I’ve spent most of the last four months playing and ranking up. It’s not the most productive thing to do and neither is it something to be proud of. But I’m done feeling guilty about it and today, I had my accounts deleted by SEMC.
Can you believe that? All the time and money I spent on that game for the last four months, time, especially – just evaporated in the blink of an eye. And for what? Absolutely nothing. This is what obsessive gaming does and as much as I liked VainGlory, it’s one of those games that were designed to keep you coming back for more.
The thing for me is that I like being focused when committed to something. In this case, I was committed to getting virtual trophies
that will never really get me anywhere and I did all I could to climb up that ladder hoping to get some petty recognition, or a sense of false achievement.
It is now that I realised and remembered that this is lower than me. This isn’t who I am at all. I am fearfully and wonderfully made and God has so much better plans for me. There is more to life than this and true joy and happiness can never come from killing characters on a mobile screen. Sure it makes you feel good when you pwn some noobs, but really, when you wake up in the morning and go to work, is anyone really gonna care about your average KDA?
I don’t wish to write a lot today. I’m just happy that I’m back here on my blog again. I’m still re-adjusting in life and I’m so glad that Jesus is always here with me to guide me back to His grace and unfailing, unconditional love whenever I get hoodwinked into believing the lies that the devil plants.
I am a child of God, the righteousness of God in Christ and I am greatly blessed, highly favoured and deeply loved, apart from my works and it is Jesus’ grace and goodness that leads me to repentance. So, here I am living it out. I will see you all again very soon.