Yes! It’s the new year. It has finally reached the depths of my heart and mind that 2017 is officially over. That took quite some time, I know. Only more than half a month delayed. I have reasons that I won’t be discussing here. Instead, I’ll be sharing my goals and things I look forward to this year.
Personally, I found having lists of everything a bit overwhelming. Having so many things in my mind was too much at some point in my life that I just totally let everything go and winged it. It was during the time that I held myself to foolish and impossible ideals which were objectified by my to-do lists. Curse perfectionism. So, whenever I failed to be consistent, I just dropped the whole thing because I felt terrible for having failed in the first place that I didn’t think continuing was still worth it. Yep, that’s perfectionism fer ya. At least, that’s how it was for me.
After letting Jesus just take over my life, I have learned a few things. One is that, my lists don’t define me. Second, whether or not I complete something does not define me either. I now know who I am, and that’s beloved of Jesus. One He chose to die for to save from eternal damnation. And nothing… NOTHING, can ever separate me from His love. Not even my poor attempts at creating good habits.
There are many other things I’ve picked up along the way while walking with Jesus and towards the end of last year I started tracking my daily progress again. I’ve also made a list of the things I’d like to prioritise in this life. Not so I can keep a perfectly consistent life to show off to others. No, but because there are so many things happening in my life, good things mostly, that I forget what my priorities are. So, I’m finding it helpful to keep lists again for my own sanity but not as a standard to hold myself accountable to. I hope that’s helpful to those who keep failing at their self-imposed rules. Rules don’t define us. We make the rules for our benefit. When they stop being beneficial, there’s no point in having them anymore.
Before I move further, I want to give you a glimpse of my life in 2017. You can really just choose to ignore it haha, I just feel like posting it here. I’m feeling rather accomplished to have survived that time. The different colours you see there identify work, school, and general duties. This is really just adulthood 101 but knowing that many people fail at adulting, I hope this can be an inspiration that it’s not impossible at all! With Jesus nothing is impossible. Also, I still had enough downtime for myself and the people I love, so it all worked out okay.
Having said that rather wordy (and image-y) introduction, here are the things I’d like to focus on this year.
Of course, I’ll never be able to survive this year, or any year for that matter, without Jesus. The decisions that I make everyday take all of my brains but knowing Jesus’ unconditional love for me gives me a kind of peace that the world cannot give and I end up making the right decisions at the right place and the right time. Not to mention, it was Him that brought me out of the darkness of my self-imposed lawfulness and showed me His grace. His life-saving, joy-giving and peace-loving grace.
So, this is just a reminder that my life would be so much better if I spend time to seek Jesus – that is reading His Word with a revelation of His grace or listening to Christ-centred sermons, before starting or ending the day.
If I have to make decisions that involve my family, they come second only to Jesus. I love my family to the bones and I thank God for them everyday. So, this year, I’m looking forward to spending more quality time with them. I’m already planning two more trips home before this year is over (I’m at home with them right now).
I’m studying to be able to do what I wanna do for the rest of my life so, yeah, this is kind of a big deal.
Of course. My current job is a God-given gift so I’d like to keep it until this season passes.
Web / Mobile Dev
This started as a hobby but this is what I’m studying at school now. So, I’ll be focusing on spending the rest of my free time tinkering my own WordPress themes and my sister’s portfolio site. Maybe I’ll go back to creating mobile apps too.
Yes! Reading opened my eyes to so many things and not just fantasy but the lives of the rest of the world. My 2018 reading challenge is 20 books. You can help me track it here haha.
This one will take quite some guts. I was able to go through a fitness routine for half a year and it was a very fulfilling time. I’d like to be able to do it again and this time, make it part of me, my lifestyle. I really just wanna be able to wear some of my old clothes again haha.
China is taking over the world. No, really. I get to meet a lot of Chinese people and I feel sad when I don’t get to communicate with them because they can’t speak English. Chinese (Mandarin) is also very handy in case China does take over the world.
Least priority but is still fun nonetheless. I’ve published two fanfics so far and I’m currently working on one. Since this only takes whatever leftover time I can spare it, my progress on this one may be like a turtle’s. No matter, even turtles can get to the finish line.
That’s all about it! I hope you get some time to gather your thoughts too and have things to look forward to this 2018.